How Rude!

On monday I made plans with my half brother's half sister, so my sister from another mother and father, to meet up around 5pm today and we loosely agreed to meet at Chuck E. Cheese. Last night she commented on a picture I posted on facebook and asked if we were still on for today. I responded about 20 minutes later telling her that we were and I asked her where exactly we would meet up. She never responded so today around 11:30 I sent her a text message asking if we were still getting together and if Chuck E. Cheese was still a good place to meet up and which one exactly does she go to. I went about my day planning on going out around 4-4:30. I never heard back from her so 3:45 I sent another text basically saying the same thing as the first one. 

I am on nutrisystem and one of the lunches I have is a bar, so I decided today I would have a dinner for lunch and bring a bar for dinner so it would be easier to stick to my plan. I decided not to go out before lunch with the kids to the library like I had originally planned. Two outings in one day can be stressful and could make for some cranky children while out the second time. I told my daughter where we were going and she was very excited for Cheese (it's her favorite food right now) 

Finally around 4:45 I get a text message from her:

Hey hunni! Omgoodness! I've been at my bosses house all day with the baby. We are all very close so they wanted a day with her. I'm so sorry first time I checked my phone all day. If we do meet up its going to be a little while we are out and I have to go home and feed my son and get things situated.

I responded saying it's ok we will do it another time. In the past I would have been like oh that's totally fine let me know when you would be able to make it, would you just want us to come to your place instead to make it easier on you. Not anymore. This is bull, she was the one that messaged me last night on facebook to remind me. She cannot tell me that did not go on facebook or look at her phone between last night and today at 4:45?!?!? Plus she went over to her bosses for the baby to spend the day with them and she didn't pull her phone out to take a picture once? I'm so sick of being walked all over, I am worth more than an afterthought.
I feel like people these days are too connected, and are too accessible. When I was younger if a friend needed to get a hold of me they passed me a note in the hallway between classes or called my house and asked my mother for me to call them back and the response was never immediate. It wasn't practical nor should it be. I don't need to be accessed 24/7, I need time for myself and for my family. So I understand not always responding to people right away because it isn't always the right time. I can't stand when my mother sends me a message and I don't get back to her right away she resends the exact same message as if I never got it the first time. However when it comes to having plans with someone and things changing I always respond right away.  
And I know if someone did that to her she would blow up facebook about it. And she still hasn't said anything back.

Every year my sister in law and her husband change their facebook pictures around my niece's birthday to a picture of my niece right after being pulled out of the uterus. It is one of those borderline pictures, is this ok or not to put up on facebook. To me it's not something I would do, let alone do it every year. Put up a current picture, that's what I do. The other really weird thing is the same picture is blown up and made into one of those expensive really big canvass pictures hanging in their living room. Not exactly what I want to see when I look into the living room from the dining room as I am eating pizza.

Intro

I recently started writing a blog about my life growing up and the struggles I had. It has been a great form of therapy for me but I have been finding it hard to write everyday about the tough stuff and find that there are other things I would love to also write about that are going on on a daily basis. So I decided to start this separate blog. I know another blog about being a mom, I am not going to sit here and say I am offering a new look or way or expertise on how to raise children and it will not always be about raising children. I am just here giving my view of the parenting I go through.
For example, the other day my 2 year old daughter was laying on top of her Cinderella doll making out with her. Some parents may react and think oh crap my child is making out with a same sex doll. Some parents may say what the hell is she watching that is giving her these ideas. My reaction was, it is interesting that she is picking up that passion from something she has seen on TV and she is so young. It made me re-evalute my relationship with my husband. We don't have this crazy passion for each other, not because we don't love each other but between the crazy hours we worked (back when I was working) and now having two very young children we are both tired and just go through the motions of the day. I decided to talk to my husband about it and we both thought we should be more affectionate towards each other because our children should see that growing up. They should learn how to love through seeing our love for each other. Neither my husband nor myself ever really saw that affection with our parent's relationships, which is probably why it was so easy to let our initial puppy love spark die out.
I have noticed in the past couple days that our daughter has been more lovey than usual. She was always huggy and kissy but now she runs over and joins our hug and looks for our kisses. It is a great change and I wish we had started it earlier.
Just a little background, I am a mother of two, daughter who is 2 and son who is 6 months. I have a BA in psychology. I have worked with children for many years in jobs ranging from teaching, to childcare, to residential treatment centers, to being a family support worker with a national program for new parents. I have a very good understanding of child development and have quite a number of practical tricks up my sleeve when it comes to difficulties of being a parent. However I am new to being a parent so this is still all a learning experience for me. My husband and I got married in 2009 with only a couple friends present, our families still do not know we are married. He had no experience with children until our daughter was born. After I had my daughter I returned to work, which was not easy. Just before her first birthday we decided to move about 4 hours away to live with my mother and save money so we could someday buy a house of our own. Shortly after we moved I got pregnant with my son and I knew trying to get a job in my field would be difficult especially having to leave for maternity leave 8 months after starting. We decided me staying home till after our son arrived was best. My son came in October and we planned on me looking for work after the holidays were over. Then the Newtown shooting happened, I sat on my couch holding both kids all day crying. How could I put them in someone else's care now?!?! Not only that but trying to find a job where I would be making enough to cover their daycare and make more to save was impossible, non-profit pay sucks. Then we did our taxes... Definitely more beneficial for me to remain at home for now. I miss the work I did and helping people, I also miss the adult interaction but I love having this time with my kids. There are definitely some difficult days but the good 10 times over out weigh the bad.